The Rhythms of His Heart

I was walking down the hall of my workplace during my  summer student job placement .  Many of the lovely clients we  served there were people who had physical and intellectual disabilities.  One of them who we will call "Guss" said, "Deanna, can you stop making that noise when you walk?!" I don't fault Guss and if I were honest the sound is a little annoying...I mean sometimes I really wish I could just sneak up on people and be all stealthy, ya know?!😊  My 'noise'  was the sound of my crutches.  Those of you who know me and have shared space with me know what I'm talking about.  "Click, Click, Clack, Clack" Yep, the sound of my mobility aids.  This sound can carry the  happy sound of joy, freedom, dance and Dee presence if you are my momma, friend, brothers or even the beautiful little old ladies at church. There is  another harder- to- swallow side to this sound though.  It is a sound that carries with it a tone of...

I let go because I love I love because I let go... Love?!  It’s about those glances from across the room, those butterflies in your stomach,  and even those 'I can’t get any word out ' moments. It’s about those little moments of needs noticed and caring for each other. It's about leaning in and grasping hands to get through the unstable together. It’s also about awkward conversation, risking rejection and    being aware of each other’s interests. It’s about those can’t eat, can’t sleep and can’t even listen to a love song without thinking about him moments. It’s cheesy like a romance movie and painful like heart surgery. It inspires paintings, poems, song lyrics and dancing. It makes you laugh until you cry and then cry until you laugh. It makes you savor sunsets, trees, oceans and even the simplest cup of tea  tastes better when shared in the company of ones you love.. Oh but here is where it’s also just as real! Love?! It has a cost. There...