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My Long Thanksgiving Table

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Imagine sitting at a Thanksgiving Table free from Pandemic restrictions that reaches to the corners of where you are tonight. Here’s the true story I’d tell of the last weeks to clear up  some of the talk ,any questions, curiosity and assumptions of what has been going on since many of you have been following me even before I knew all about it! On Saturday, September 4 I left my apartment in the evening on my scooter . I ventured abnormally far without keys, shoes or a phone away from my home. I was behaving strangely and a passerby saw me. He contacted 911 and they came with an ambulance and loaded me up with my scooter and headed to HSC. I woke up after being in a medically induced coma on September 16.It's really weird and crazy to wake up and not remember how you got there and deal with disappointment of things that you missed because you were unknowingly sick and intubated.  It was then that I learned about this wave of love and prayer on a Facebook group and a Go Fund

Oil, Wine & Bandages

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The " Pray As You Go"  prayer today was a reflection on the story of the good Samaritan. I can't get it away from the thoughts on how the man used his own money to pay for lodging, oil and wine to bandage the wounds of the man left for dead without any thought of what was in it for him and whether or not his kindness was going to be reciprocated or not. It seems it was the true definition of compassion and generosity without obligation or the power of the guilt word "should." Today as I reflect more on this I wonder what offering oil, wine and bandaging people's wounds looks like in our day? For me the few rest places and few friends that have brought the most healing and rest are not what you would think! I mean if someone is sad we want to cheer them up!  If someone is having a bad day we spout off platitudes (maybe a Scripture verse or two at the wrong time)  of hope and cheer too.  While the  intention of all of that may be kind at its core I think there

A Year of Home: Interdependence & Dove's Eyes

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  It's been a year!  A year of mental, physical and emotional gymnastics.  A year of learning to be flexible. A year of acknowledging trauma, grief and disappointment. It's been a year of welcoming loneliness and aloneness as friends in an apartment all my own.  It's been a year of doubt where I've wondered has it all been worth it? A year of missing hugs and singing with people. A year of goodbyes and so longs.  A year of initiating conversations where my voice and tear ducts quiver. A year of learning how to be at home with myself---of being at home in God.  A year of learning to laugh at myself and to stop being so serious.  A year of "flipping tables" inwardly as I learned Zoom screens and to unmute my microphone as time and time again being with people was deemed unsafe or restricted.  It's been exhausting. It's been beautiful discovering all the things around my city and walking/praying as I walk or wheel on these sidewalks. It's been a year

Open Containers & Women Who Lead

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 In my kitchen cupboard there are a variety of cups. It's probably not much different than your collection.  There are tumblers, wine glasses,  coffee mugs and two pieces of real china--one from my grandmother and another tea cup and saucer from a woman who has been a good friend over the years.  In the morning I need a big mug to sip my coffee! Sabbath and celebration days are for the wine & china containers :) and then some days I just reach for whatever is clean and available.  This may drive some of you crazy, but in this house coffee mugs have been used to hold soup, juice, ice cream and sometimes just  plain ol'  water!   What's my point?  I've been talking to God about a myriad of things that cause me to wrestle & pray---and at times enter into conversation that is not always comfortable for me.  One of those things is the role of women and their leadership in a spiritual context.I realize not everyone has the same context and background as me and I respe

Always a Bridesmaid & Sometimes A Wedding Singer

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Stearns Wedding 09/16    Shaw Wedding  02/19 Drabiuk Wedding 06/09 Durette Wedding 09/09 Waite Wedding 07/12 It's wedding season...oh but wait?!  Is it though?  Ok, it IS 2021 and there can be weddings in any place-- any season, rain or shine, huh? Since Covid we've even lived through a time where we can attend virtual weddings!  I even know by attending a wedding earlier this spring that drive thru weddings can be a lovely thing! They may not be the  best that we would have  hoped for, but I  still did see a good, exciting thing and left with some pretty great chocolates and a candle in the end! 😏 I've been a part of  several weddings over the years! It has been my joy to honor these couples either by walking the aisle or singing my heart out on a  love song or two!  I  have breathed in a whole lot of grace and times of sitting with God over my own and other's expectations of  MY  relationship status!  These times have even included a review, repenting and rebuilding

In the shade of the Tree

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  I am always taking time to notice trees.  I  have paid attention to them in each season. It helps now too that I  live in a  beautiful city that seems to have streets that are shaded by them.  Also,  I am drawn to look out and consider them when I am in silent prayer.  This week it seems trees are coming to the forefront again!  I gave Sunday's homily on the Gospel Parable  where the  mustard seed becomes a tree where birds nest in it to find shade.  I was also drawn to look at a tree because my parents are moving from a home they have lived in for several years!  My youngest brother sent us all the above video of the big, lush tree that will no longer be the one that we or the grandkids linger at for family photos.  (Sorry, not sorry for the Stearns' sentimental sap!) 😉   So yes, it seems  the trees are shimmering for me  these days!  Even this morning my Scripture reading drew me to Revelation 22 when there will be restoration back to Eden and the tree of life will have l

Ascension Thoughts: Upward, Horizontal & Global Gazing

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The Ascension Acts 1:   And after He had said these things, He was lifted up while they were watching, and a cloud took Him up, out of their sight.   And as they were gazing intently into the sky while He was going, then behold, two men in white clothing stood beside them,     and they said, “Men of Galilee, why do you stand looking into the sky? This Jesus, who has been taken up from you into heaven, will come in the same way as you have watched Him go into heaven.” "...why do you stand looking into the sky? " This question hit me when I read it---it hit me real hard!  Like a "Ahha!" moment!  I have been stirred to consider and ask questions about what to focus on!  How should I focus my time and energy in my own vocation---in my community---and in the world?  My love for one-on-one intimate times of solitude and prayer feel like home and a sure place for me!  Still if it was just about MY own relationship with God without any movement outward then I think the ques