The Rhythms of His Heart

Beginning of February I was at Missionfest Manitoba for A Friday Night and Saturday!  I love missions and hearing the heart of missionaries. It really is one of my favorite things to be in a room with them and some of the greatest examples in my life have been missionaries!  I can't remember the exact theme in words, but it was something along the lines of missions in places of adversity...or serving in the hard places!  Little did I know the ways that God would challenge my own heart through this! I sat in sessions hearing a brother (with joy literally exploding from his heart) share his stories of being in concentration camps in Cambodia!  My throat got a little more "lumpy" even as I listened to another brother talk of his being imprisoned by guerrilla soldiers and how he ministered to them in forgiveness and love! Phew! that challenged my heart and opened my heart to ask the question "Would I be willing to go through that for the sake of Jesus?" The day ...

A Prostitute in a Church Pew? You may wonder at my title and yet it is something that the Spirit has been poking my heart with lately.  We know the term prostitute as someone that sells her/his body in a sexual act for money.  We know this but I want you to think of it for this blog  in these terms: "someone who acts so they can earn someone's love and affection" Here is where the rubber meets the road for me...my heart is exposed and I realize who I am. I can act like the prostitute in a church pew...always doing so I can earn God's love and affection. Feeling useless or unworthy I feel sometimes as if I have to do things for fear of disappointing Jesus or people around me. You see, all the things I do...the public and the private things I do in my relationship with my Lover Jesus Christ do NOT make Him love me more!  A lot of times growing up and still times to this day I feel unloved...like I never measure up or that I have to do all the "good Christian girl...