The Rhythms of His Heart

In the last week I have sat with some women who I love deeply and lead in their lives, jobs and ministries.  It's crazy to me though how my 'false self' can take over and try to compete, steal her 'show' or want what she has.  Though I don't think that women are the only ones prone to these feelings, I am honestly wanting to be a celebrator and promoter of my sisters in God's Kingdom.  God, forgive me when I am not that!  As I prayed through the stuff that bubbled up in me, I remembered a scene from my year of School of Mercy & Justice where I  was chosen to wash a beautiful ones feet. There were a lot of significant things that happened in this moment that would make this post long, but I'll get to the focus of why it means so much to me as I live life shoulder to shoulder with other women.   Here are some lines that try and imperfectly express what I felt that day, but really I write it to remind myself that I want to authentically be a woman who...

Same hat different 'hood @ Hildegard's Bakery I have finally moved into my city apartment!   A month has gone by and part of me feels like a kid looking through a shop window at a desired donut on a day. Only now I  finally get to go in and enjoy it...with allllll the powdered sugar and jelly all over my face!! ☺  I am pretty sure that my eyes have been in 'childlike', wide open wonder and tired mode this entire month as I learn my neighborhood, pray about a job, continue Year 2 of Spiritual Direction,   struggle with finding access through doors and giggle with glee in my spacious home all by myself on an evening!!! Praise, God who has heard my wants!!!   I have been gifted MUCH after such a long period of waiting. Yes, I am LIIIIVVVVVING! I am growing and I am falling in love with my God in a deep way.  The Holy Trinity by Andrei Rublev  means much to our little church Oh, annnd I get to be a little closer for THIS time and contribute ...